Just like that

                     Miraculously all the gang was offline leaving me with no option rather than coming here. haha. I was once known to a few and now tables turned real fast., though I have tons of friends now, nothing is making a difference except my fame. But, I've learnt one thing for sure..It does not really matter on the number of friends we have, it only depends on the number of true friends & true enemies we have.

                   With a 20% recall at my past I was once a very dull student with absolutely Zero communication skills,Zero Style,Zero friends,Zero confidence,Millions of foes,cunning predators all around,to be apt I was in complete darkness along with  a crystal clear heart bearing a glittering hope that Days will change,that I too shall have friends and that I too will be cool.

                    Life has taught me many things in those following days, I've learnt reading people, I've learnt to manage people's thoughts,I've learnt Understanding them, I've learnt looking the real ME.... Like every others I never had good days in my childhood, I never had friends, girl friends nor crushes, because I was on a rage. If Everything happens for a reason, that reason molded me...Many knows nothing that I have a deep pain haunting from my past, because It was always not what I didn't feel, it's what I didn't show.

                   And Today I am left with a slice of topper charm, rapport, skills, knowledge,ken,luck,destiny and what not.. I have most of the things that I ever wanted, But, still there is a bit of Incomplete sense killing me that I should have woke up a little bit earlier in life which would have landed me on a little better position than what I am now, as the saying goes its never too late to sort revenge. I shall have my avenge on life, the people involved, and the sins committed very soon in terms of shattering their EGO Under My FOOT....

In whatever Painful situation we are in today, Just believe there shall be a day where we'll be there to look in to the eyes of the opponent/cause to make them/it pay back their/its every deed.

Dedicated to everyone who were/are/may in pain from life/from the innocence of their past.

Krrish (A1)

                                                        

Mood swings: past, present, future and beyond..

                          I was stumbling upon youtube and came across this radically distinctive video by VSAUCE channel,..It says: By each year that we live, the capability of learning new things gets reduced by half!..so, the one who feels content for life is the one who learns the most. It adds :when we don't learn anything, days seems to run faster than normal!.. explaining the reasons why school life feels like a life time, while 4 years of UG collage life seems to have passed by like in a month or two.Gist of the story: The more you learn new, the slower the time passes!. weird ain't it..but the video conveniences us to believe in its credibility...

                     B/w I've brought new Rebook shoes n they look cool ... This is the most costliest purchase of mine on a single peace of merchandise since an year..n It's worth 5K!...hehe I was like damn happy when I have spent a whole lot of money all by myself in Just 7 min of shopping.... I saw a ton of irresponsible devils who won the battle against a responsible teenager who is supposed to save money for the future! "comm'on Just get it when you like it no matter how crazy it may sound to others!" were the last words that I've heard before I made the decision to go for it,  Now the feel of walking on 5k worth merchandise is thrilling me ;P

And also I'll have to torch-er the students with Lab internals, and viva this week... I hope they'll do better than I did :P..

I'm glad to write this stuff & for the time that I've got from life to chill out everyday that passes by.. Apart from the incompleteness that is craving for light of sharing my happiness with all my friends, I console myself with a hope that mates shall having fun better than me.. I hope my incomplete world shall be made complete soon............................................................................................................................................................

Something was missing...Life as a Business

(This was all about my current part-time work experience <* spoiler alert: it'll be boring>)

Do I think too much or is it that complicated to manipulate people?.Long gone were the days where all the smiles were real; where all the care from the people was the feel gushing from their hearts. Damn!..How can one just live in the world where every word one says is to crave only for the goodwill for the other that he/she might come handy to help in the future... Disgusting!

I have not even entered the corporate world and I could reckon the attitude of people: Sly thinking styles encrypted with dishonesty and crafty wisdom.. I Wonder what are everyone craving for! money? ego? status? friendship? love? or the joy of disguise?. Well, people change according to the situation for sure... but the ultimate mockery of it all is the art of masking perfidy with entrust.

                     Even though my 23 deck of cards are a little self-interested, I can often see true friendship in them, I would have really been alone without these set of friends of mine and I would like to "Thank God" for giving me these Engineering friends.

                     The Joy of being wholehearted is the most profound happiness that one cannot buy with any other means...hm....wait a minute... Am I 100% wholehearted to blame that others ain't? The answer is NO, I'M not afraid to quote my persuasions. But, at least I have Never given it a try to make people believe that I am not what I am, nor made them believe that I am going to be someone who I will not be!

Friends, family, home, care, ego, movies, music and a question ...

                  I feel like I am the only one in the world having most of the fun, either others are busy in thinking that they are busy or just floating with the repercussions of ripples from the life. Some think I am too big a deal while some others completely  forgot to remember me :/..hmmmm... kk i'm done with the unstable thoughts.. Now here comes the main reason for blogging this time with caution.

STRICTLY MEANT FOR ONLY THOSE GUYS WHOM I'VE ASKED THEM TO READ 

(NOT FOR GIRLS)

 Why are you still single!, you are lying!, why don't you tell the truth if we did! and these topped along with spices of the most controversial rumors on the earth.Look people, if you are here with the same sample Questions that I get asked at every wink , welcome aboard.. to all the questionable pros out there ..Here comes the hardcore truth....somethings are meant to happen just like that, nothing in life is too big a deal nor too complicated to kindle . Just close your eyes and count the number of crushes you have had since your school... 3? 4? some of you champs had as many as 6.. are they really worth it? The time, the feelings, the msgs, the last longed forwarded emails,the gifts, enemies from your crushes'es crushes.. pain and bla bla bla... just think where are you just heading ? Into another disloyal relationship that even you know deep inside that It is not gonna last long.. If you think I am too studious to digest the so called time pass that you are calling it, then yes I am studious. I am always absent to make things that are not gonna last long, that at the absence of the other can be said "this is all about a little time-pass, chill dude".. I really cannot play with the feel of an unknown chick So.. never make a big deal out of this issue! next time acting like a pro that you all have got something that I don't because both of us know, it ain't gonna last long.. And if I ever happen to come across the so called damn gorgeous and ultra honest chick from heavens then ill give you a chance to say "you gotta be kidding me!!" from your mouths for sure, until then just keep them shut!!!! 

I'm Happy :D

Friends were the reason for my happiness... though many live like every man for himself some times The Things that we do reflect back and makes us happy... 

By the by, I got my very first salary and that is @4k for my 10 days work in a month, assistant professors are awesome! lol .. bbye busy right now.. c u ppl ssooon..gn tc

walking with time

The Days are just ticking by...The good thing is I'm not being bored by any means.. Morning 6 'O clock to evening 7 'O clock fully jam packed schedule is now trying to make me happy...but, I have almost no frnz except one or two still actively alive to share with :/< pretty sad ain't it?>..now this is the point where my heart asks me to post something in here... everyone are just busy with their own job pressure time schedule stuff, just like me... but, the good thing is I'm pretty okay as of now... full time pass, not bad you see...

Cunning wolves pouncing up on Hunter's pride...

I'm really disheartened as I am here dealing with two cases of very painful reactions from my very own wolf pack...

case 1: I Really wonder why people really want to do things in the secret stealth mode when they stand behind us pretending to support...when I let them know everything I know they just use it to grab all sticks to build a nest by stealing the tweaks I have collected, that too in stealth mode...& in return I am awed every time by their actions to the levels they fall down to let this happen....I would just like you to know that if you want it just ask me straight away I would give it to you all ...

case 2: People are really afraid that if they reveal their plans others may just grab them right away (or) they are just too selfish to even talk about it... Finding an  ideal synonyms for sharing is pretty tough these days.. May be it is the way this play ground is , every man for himself... thankq for most of the people for letting me know the rules to play by.. here i start now--> do your best to get an edge, else just ring me up I shall give you a plan....

But remember one thing pigeon heads, i'll not stop sharing nor stop loving, you may not realize that whatever you are fighting for in stealth modes is like trying to steal a unicorn to suck it's blood to achieve immortality but I can forgive you as I always did... I don't even expect you to grow up... nor I shall switch to stealth mode to do things like you under the cover cuz i believe in Myself, not in a world with plastic hearts, I believe in fighting under the sun where you can see your graves dug that shall bury your selfishness one day or the other...

Enlightenment- Doj is here finally...

To the admirers, Readers and google web crawlers that constantly read my blog and scan text to make relevant adds appear on my blog page... welcome..
My doj is here ... TCS chennai 22nd march 2012.. which is approx half an year from now,Isn't this is really shocking? 6+months to still count down for the busy days in my life? what do i do till then? be unemployed? watch TV and FB for a continues 6 month holiday package? .. hmm if plans work accordingly i dont have to deal with this emptiness by god's grace and I shall be busy If my part time job trail plans yield  fruit-full ......

I'm Tryingggggggg to B'end the Truth...

I am Very different these days... days are passing like minutes ... Facts punched me with a further delay in the road ahead to reach JL.... My guitar plans reignited , no crapping this time...I'm gonna do something more now...
My daily routine goes with playing Online games, chatting and all sorts of wasting time...along with a band of gangsters singing a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard .....

Stupefied, petrified, terrified with the feel of being disoriented is moving through the Inter-Net of senses... Earth is up and the Sky is down while storms of ideas whirling me around.. learning Italian by the way to kill my raging heart... So completely going to parla italiano after some days....haha seriously atleast something is worth of it you know.... 

Adios Amigos

 Bene grazie  for UR time...

Intoxicated thoughts

Had to come up with this situational song this time..hahaha...Each and Every Ounce of feel in the Lyric running through my Veins....

Searching for some crazy tracks to play it on a guitar string..... offfff forgot to tell you, I've joined guitar classes :P Because this shoot............... OMG!!!!! this boredom is killing me; you know I'm a restless heartbeat who ain't needs to lay low sometimes as if like I'm cursed to stay around ......... I think I can now write a book to erase myself hrrrrrr...... Alright i'm gonna put an end to this script of pain...  Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (^^^)                    

Midnight Morning Light

I can feel the wind towards me.... It Feels like I need a strong motivation to set my direction to set sail on...One of the advantages of these holidays is that these made me relax,  as relaxed as I was like enjoying a hot spa of happiness , joy and strength... Just Listening music now, nothing to do with tomorrow as of now...

                                   You just need to stay cool and have fun..how cool is it? lol...aaah I'm happy, no rushes though i love being at pressure albeit being cut loose is not as bad as i thought.... in a way It's making me restless ... Good that I'm still doing something worthwhile in these holidays....(keeping myself alive) but that something don't needs me to do things at pressure, this is what is making me bored.. okay .. its okay.. Some of my idiots had left the city and one more is gonna leave in 2 or 3 days..

                         The Emptiness getting around Me is now shattered by fb and gtalk...I at-least thank goodness for that... This would be a totally different story if i had someone special in my life ain't it? LOL....... I think I would have been more restless than this :P hahahaha..... Touch-wood that I am lucky enough not to deal with some crap that like ;) b/w now where was I?..... ahhh at the Emptiness....now My dear Emptiness go to Hell and get the heck out of here.........  

Holidays are Enough...

Enough is enough..... Too much of anything is good for no one..... Keeping myself busy is a tedious task you see... May be I should try a little harder....

New looks and I'm on Vengeance...

Growing stronger day by day....

Stronger at heart to defend, to make a thing happen straight from thoughts.....
Though the past childhood has been a requiem  for stability not knowing much about life... albeit made me melt in to a polished metal from cast iron... a beautiful melody of life playing its lyrics...making me tap for the feel.
If you feels the necessity for a deserved one to rule ... that makes you be left only with one option called me myself............ who has come all the way from the scratch..........I've seen very bad days where i was sick, shattered, broken, tore apart,.... but ever punch I took on made me stronger like a Saiyan.....
I am not the one who you have met me 5 years ago...nor will i be someone now in the future..you like me or not..I'm gonna get better than ever.....

After results....I am still me.....

                      Atlast results were out...bringing me new responsibilities...... 85% was marked on my face for the one last time though I wanted a few more chips to be crunched down into the history........ but its okay .....My dream of topping my branch is fulfilled....I am the topper for one semester ...the last one.... Joy flowing through my veins mixed with intoxicated blood as a drug.........
Do something is my new go...... thoughts like worms eating my unconscious brain demanding something more....
That more that makes me ME ....... something that makes me stand special in the crowd ..................

What am I in this world..... I am nobody, what is this feel that makes me incomplete...... hope I could figure this out soon ....cuz this feel of incompleteness is killing me.....I had to do something that I dont know yet....escaping from this insanity is making me think towards joining in guitar classes, driving classes , gym, bla bla bla.......Am I pushing myself too much? ..... yet finding solace lying back listening Nelly furtado's mood swings, rocking Disturbed band music breaks..........
Let the TCS call me soon before I become more philosophical ...........  

Bye folkssss......what am I , what will I be.....Time to tell answers soon.......

I'm bk in my feel \m/

Crazy music mastering my mind....
                Metallic, rock, electric and all new dj mixes banging my ears...wohooooooooooooooo hahahaha
entooo...just been home from long trip to tirupthi, chennai finding it hard to beat sun heat....ah I'm home at last, home sweet home with my skin tone  faded  :'( (Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!) but what to do.....sad huh? no worries what so ever ...

woh woh woh..just had some unfinished business ....stay tuned, ill be bk.......... ;) byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

A feel ain't needs a title...

Time is the fourth dimension, apart from the 3 dimensions as we already know...and I hate this time thing , it runs slow when I want to skip it, runs fast when I don't want it to do so...

I  just want to get lost to some new world in which I need not say things but can be able to communicate through mind, if a picture is worth a billion words then a feeling is much more worth it... Words and action can deceive but feelings cannot. Though I can say things from actions but not many are equipped with abilities to understand my special language... because I know I am not a bad communicator ;) ...... I advice you not always to believe what you see...

Its not what I didn't feel, Its what I didn't show. I am not as rude as you think I am....
Let me define "My Attitude" for you.... A feel that says what the heck , who cares if you are what you are?
Everyone has their own life to live,  and nobody cares for none if it threatens their present social status except for their dear ones...

Think about it: is it a better to hide feeling ? or to speak it because you think what do you achieve in not saying what you feel...

This is worth it!...Tell me!... are there anyone in this world  who makes unstoppable feelings suppressed... untold feelings buried...no!, you can find none... If you think you can! then don't deceive yourself!

I'm honored....

               Don't know the reasons but I am happy than ever... Something is making me feel good about myself.... I am damn damn damn lucky to have these friends, family, you..... I might have done something Veryyyyy good in my past life, reincarnated to enjoy the love and caring of people around me......

I lovee these holidays very much.....busy as always but in having fun....movies, hangouts, bla bla bla hahahaha
hope the days coming are far better than these for the people around me, cuz they make me happy everyday, every minute....

Have you ever had the feeling of everybody you know likes you very much?, have you ever had the strength  to seeing through the heart of a rival who even respects you for the good you have done?... I am enjoying these feelings to the fullest..... many friends who wants me talk more, want to understand me better... friends saying thee golden words " You made my day"................. I love Me.......... what is money mean when someone is damn happy in life......

but I want more...want more more more......lol
The latest tour redefined me....... changed me.....OMG I tell you...the temples I'v visited are sooo  peacefulllllll i tell you.........wah!......and the damn chilka lake is soo calm.....hahahaha I am not like this...always in a mood to rock but i'v enjoyed these like..... ain't had nothing like this before.......

A laptop, damnnnnn good music numbers,max friends online, some other friends calling you out for a movie, mom asking you eat something all the time...damn good night outs , playing cricket anytime, define me HEAVEN better than this!

wah........what an adventure!

HI, Hello to a new me.....

             One of The happiest feel is making me writing this post.........I am talking about my latest get away with friends that made me find myself.....you have no idea how happy i am since a week days....awesome, cool, bla bla bla.......lol
Been out of state with 8 pirates and robbed all the fun out there.1000 kms of journey through orissa and many other awesome places made me go mad with happiness....
what do you want more from life is the feel that touched me in the journey....  an awesome Music/video deck system playing coolest numbers, and an excitement to explore the new world and cool caring people(friends, parents, brother and many more),....

Been through many ultra funny situations with pleading friends to stop jocking cuz its making our cheeks go hell in pain :P lol....ill tell u an example of my non hindi friend who said these magical words that made a dabha  owner faint to coma ...his feel is to order Pepsi when the roti is brought to the table came out as
 " roti atha, pepsi avo" in hindi.....LOL

Want to share many more  but I am damn busy now....which brings our sharing thoughts program to a temporary tollgate stop ;)

 Catch you all later folks

Take care
adios 

Happy I Am

                We had a great fun today and yesterday.Our promise of the gang to remain in town till may ending is working miracles..New hangout spots with full gossips and jokes..what does an youngster demand more than loving friends?

I wish whole heartedly a plenty more friends in my life..

Enjoying marvelous days in these holidays...I pray god that these days should get better than ever......

What's going on around me!............

Best holidays are supposed to be boring ??
closest ones moving apart with the conscience of doing something in dripping thoughts....
Is this life what is all about, setting temporary goals to lead painful life time, enjoying success from these short goals...

                 Pain that remains forever but happiness that lasts only a moment? relations that wreak apart from rugged time? am I in a mood swing now or reading the very essence of human existence?
Believing in never seen god and afraid of imaginary devils? what is all this about? this happiness this pain this string of time whispering to full fill predestined thoughts?

Delving into details is pretty dangerous...till now iv just learnt to chill this very moment and leave the rest to heck...I think i should not be left like this addicted to   friends, parties ,fb,chatting,cricket, ...comn im trying to find out some more  that can avoid me from writing this .....an addiction that lasts life long......I hate myself as much as i love myself.................aww gotta smack somethings now...lol......

I hate engineering life for giving me so much and grabbing all at once...maybe this is what it is all about.... inbound pain needs to be dissipated in a form of a unknown blog of thoughts...........

(crazy stuff...... readers discretion advised)

from ME 

hey

The thing is............ My inability to digest feelings that all the frnz that iv gained are gonna be shattered to possible look and corner of Earth in less than 2 days......Engineering is gotta be over .....
I wish good will for everyone I know......
where ever you are.....
TAKE CARE...

Adios Amigos...

what am I doing

Don't really know what am I doing these days.If I plan I am planning to have fun, no other thoughts creeping my mind than to spend ample time with my pals.
                   Yesterday I was on forest trekking like a crazy person up a mountain to catch the source of a water fall. Had great fun really. Imagine yourself 200 km away from home in a forest with no one to look at you if anything goes wrong.What am I doing there? its a tough question to answer :P

hahaha Just got a call from folks that we are going for a movie this evening ;) see this is what I am saying. completely out of this world. No books, no college, no dead lines.

I don't even know why am I writing this stuff and to whom , its okay cuz you already know that I don't know what am I doing :P

kinda feel like sharing

It has been so long since iv shared anything on this blog...fell in the daily routine,walking the beautiful life....
I feel so blessed to have selected in a job for multiple companies.Thnx to the god,thank U for supporting me and thnx for "TCS ;)" and thnx for the company TCS and HCL.

U might be wondering about this special thanx session but i feel like showing my gratitude.

Our project is underway(Enhanced User Authentication Through Keystroke Biometrics). I have written 50% of the core logic in java and now saving it for the time being.I really feel happy to have excellent cricket sessionz with my friends.Feeling weird that college is gonna end in a few months.I'm gonna miss the ppl.
New life is waiting for me ahead, Ready to rock the world and make the impossible \m/

with LOVE 

Krishna Sarma.(A1)